His Birthday Project!

Hi everyone :) long time no post ya biasa deh sibuk molor hehe. ok, post kali ini gue pengen tulis tentang my lovely honey handsome husband (?) Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul. uyee hati gue senang meletup-letup tiap inget idola favorit gue ini hehe. berhubung sekarang udah masuk bulan juni, nah lo tau dong kalo baca post gue sebelumnya yang ngebahas nichkhun juga, doi nih ulang taunnya tanggal 24 juni dan itu berarti 2 minggu lagi! hoho *tepuktanganhebohsendiri
nah berhubung gue juga penggemar beratnya, udah dari lama gue punya project mau bikin foto atau tulisan 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPPA' (oppa artinya kakak cowo dalam bahasa korea) gue pengennya sih nanti pas hari-H gue upload fotonya via twitter ke akun twitternya doi (@khunnie0624) ya mudah-mudahan dia liat fotonya. cuma gue bingung, doi kan orang thailand, nah gue ga bisa atau lebih tepatnya gatau bahasa thailand-nya selamat ulang tahun itu apa hehe. terus gue sempet mikir buat nulis pake bahasa koreanya 'saengil chukaehamnida' tapi ko kurang sreg ya -_- terus sempet kepikiran juga mau bikin tulisan gede pake huruf hangul 생일 축하합니다 tapi pas gue kasih warna jadinya malah ga bagus T_T akhirnya gue putuskan ucapan paling STANDAR di seluruh dunia 'Happy Birthday' (iye gue tau ga kreatip -_-) 
setelah minta bantuan depin(baca: maksa) buat fotoin gue yang megang kertas ucapannya jadilah fotonya. cuma sayang banget pas muka gue lagi jerawatan (shit meen) gue coba dengan segala posisi, segala sudut, macem-macem ukuran pixel kamera akhirnya gue dapet yang bagus. and after that baru deh gue edit fotonya dan jadinya begini 

gimana menurut lo? pasti standar banget kan -_- ya maklum deh gue juga ga jago ngedit foto tapi demi aa nichkhun gue bakal lakukan apapun! hahaha
oiya, bulan mei kemaren kan gue ulang taun juga, nah sahabat gue, ria ngasih kado yang bener-bener-bikin-gue-seneng-terharu-girang-lompat-lompat. you know what? kumpulan foto nichkhun yang belum pernah gue liat dan ga ada di internet!!!!!! woo makasih banget neng! pengennya nanti gue udah kost kado itu gue pajang di kamar kost hehe
terus berhubiung dikumpulan foto nichkhun itu dalah tulisan 'saengil chukae' juga terbesit deh pikiran buat ngedit-ngedit foto dari situ hehe gue juga bakal upload foto kumpulan foto nichkhun itu ke akun twitter doi yaa biar doi liat deh :p
nah hasil-hasil foto plus editannya kaya gini 

  

 

 

gimana? unyu kan? hehe itu baru sebagian sebenernya masih banyak tapi entah kenapa malem ini kecepatan upload foto internet gue rada lama -_- jadi ga bisa semua gue upload.

nah ini juga ada sebagian foto proses sebelum diedit kaya yang diatas

ya itu dia beberapa foto-fotonya doain ya nanti doi liat foto yang gue upload hehe biar sederhana tapi yang penting itu niat! siapa tau doi ngeh terus reply tweet gue, terus follow back gue, terus temenan, terus ketemuan teruuus....oke cukup itu lebay banget hehe

psst, i promise to make another birthday project for 2PM members too. junho, junsu, taecyeon, chansung, wooyoung^^

yaiyalah secara 2PM boyband favorit gue banget hehe

sekian dulu pos kali ini ya. yoo marii capcus bye byeeeeeee :)

*special thanks to : Ria, depin, agil, ka ninis

2 Different Tears

I'm tryna figure out how to move on with my life
Without you by my side
Wakin up with teary eyes,
I can't do this no more, gotta erase you now

So I think of all the pain you've given me
Try to look at all the damage you've done to me
No matter how hard I try,
I just can't figure out why
I keep thinking bout how sweet you used to be

Gave me 2 different tears
After all these years
Tears of joy, tears of pain
Like sunshine and rain
So I hate you
But the love you gave me was so so good
So I love you
But the pain you gave me was so so bad ...

*2 Different Tears- Wonder Girl*

Hi. just wanna say that I'm sick of this f*cking feeling. i'm just tired with all of this. Love stuff? hmm maybe. kiss my ass for that.

what i have to say is sometimes i feel alone and no one understand me. yep, that's the point.
now let me ask you, (which is i know that no one will answer this) did you ever feel you love someone but instead he hurt you? or you love someone but he don't love you back? i guess maybe yes, you ever fell like that. but the point is now i'm afraid to open my heart back to a man. i'm afraid because i don't want hurt myself again. it's traumatic, you know. iya, gue trauma.
gue cuma gatau kenapa gue bisa begini, bisa kacau begini.
yang paling utama, yang paling gue butuhin saat gue begini adalah temen-temen gue, sahabat-sahabat gue. tapi gue tau mereka lagi sibuk sekarang mengejar impian masing-masing. i know my friends has their own problem, i just can't give them some of mine. so, i keep it for myself. dan gue pun sibuk sama kegiatan-kegiatan gue atau lebih tepatnya gue yang menenggelamkan diri dalam kesibukan ini buat ngelupain semuanya. huft.
i need someone to hug me, tell me everything is okay.
i wanna have someone that can understand me, love me like the way i am, care to me without any intention. is there someone out there? i guess not for this question.
huaaah it's hurt like a hell! it's hurt like d*mn thing! aaaaaaaa i wanna scream loud, you know!
rasanya gue mau meledak.
but i know that no one will hear me.

i don't know why i feel like this whereas yesterday i can control myself, i can control my emotion and i can through all this. whereas yesterday i can strongly through all this. but this time, i failed.
yeah, well, sh*t happen
 berulang kali gue puter lagu Fergie 'Big Girl Don't Cry' nyampe gue blenek, nyampe hafal banget itu lagu. iya, gue berusaha buat diri ini kuat, buat menstimulasi otak gue sendiri kalo gue ga boleh cengeng
now when i feel like this, i need rain. why? because i can cry under the rain without worry that others will know i'm cry. kalo ujan ga akan ada yang sadar gue nangis

cry under the rain like this