Update!

before hair cut

after hair cut :p this picture was taken at jogya. left: shinta right: irma. me in the center hehe

sebelah kiri: si camen tunjung haha

goooood morniiiiing everybodeeeeeh :D well today i woke up with a happpyyyyy mood i don't know why haha lol. i'm chillin' on my bed right now, youtube-ing korean mv, reading some people's blog, stalking my friend on twitter and fb hahaha just spent my me time because today i don't have any schedule on campus. yeeeeeyyy!

well well actually since 2 weeks ago, myself always think to wear hijab day by day, more and more i think i should to wear hijab as soon as possible! i feel 'perang batin' all day T.T but i think i'm not ready yet to wear hijab huaaaaa why? i don't know. doain aja yah pemirsah biar gue secepetnya pake hijab hehe aamiiiiiin! 

2 weeks ago my lovely grandma died (Then for u my beloved madamoiselle,may u have a peace beside God,i will always love u..) she's one of person i love the most in my life. you're gone too soon granny :'(

i cry a lot when i hear this song cause the lyric feels like mine when i lost her :(

Bye Bye - Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face


I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever


(bye bye bye bye bye bye)
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

i miss you sooo much granny :(

what I learned in life is...

what I learned in life is,

That no matter how good a person is, 
sometimes they can hurt you and because of this we must forgive.

It takes years to build trust and only seconds to destroy it..
We don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change..

The circumstances and the environment influence on our lives, 
but we are the one who responsible for ourselves..

That you have to control your acts or they will control you..

That patience requires much practice..
that there people who love us, but simply don't know how to show it..

That sometimes the person you think will hurt you and make you fall..
Is instead one of the few who will help you to get up..

You shoukd never tell a child that dreams are
fake, it wouldbe a tragedy if they knew..

It's not always enough to be forgiven by 
someone, in most cases you have tp forgive yourself first..

That no matter in how many pieces your heart
is broken, the world doesn't stop to fix it..

May be God wants us to meet all the wrong
people before meeting the right one..
So when we finally meet the right one we are grateful for that gift..

When the door of happiness closes, another door opens..
but often we look so long at the closed one..
we don't see what was open for us..

The best kind of a friend is the kind in which 
you can sit on a porch and walk..
Without saying a word and when you leave it 
feels it was the best conversation you ever had.

It's true we don't know what we have until we find it, but its also true, 
we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives..

It only takes a minute to offens someone, an hour to like someone,
 a day to love someone,but it takes a life time to forget someone.

Don't look for appearances, they can be
deceiving, don't go for wealth even that can fade,
Find someone who makes you smile, because 
it only takes a smile to make a day better, 
find what makes your heart smile..

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much..
that you wish you can take them out of your 
dream and hug them for real..

Dream what you want, go whereever you want
to go..because you have only one life..
and one change to do the things you want to do..

The happiest people don't necessarily have the 
best of everything,
they just make the best of everything that comes their ways.

The best future is based on the forgotten past..

You can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

-Paulo Coelho-

I called it a whole thing that I wanna do and I like

Hola everyone I’m back  yeah I know that I didn’t post a new entri for a mid-long time hehe just like I always said that I’m so busy with my crazy schedule, assignment, an awesome guy and a bunch of good friends. Yap let’s start, today I wanna write about my fucking obsession, my dream, my favorite thing or I called it a whole thing that I wanna do and I like. Here we go..

• First, Korea

Yep yep yep I love this damn cute wonderful country (without forget my country of course) why? why? Because there’s so much thing that really make me feel ‘wow’ hehe I’m positively intoxicated with it culture, food,citizen, language, korean pop and bla bla bla. And for your info, now I’m learning Korean language both written and speaking. And I swear to myself someday, I’ll go to there or maybe livin’ in :)

• Second, Dress

I’m fucking in love with this girl stuff, maybe a lot of girl out there are  in love to dress like me hehe I’m sick with mini dress,medium dress,elegant dress,bling bling dress etc except long dress. So, who want buy me a dress? Raise your hand please :p

• Third, high heels

I think I don’t need to write about why I love this thing bcause it’s worth to us, who’s not?

• Fourth, A couple with tuxedo and dress

Yep, just like in romantic movie, action movie or else I always fall in love when I see a guy wear a match tuxedo and his partner wearing a match dress, God must be Great!

• Fifth, London

Like korea, I’m highly intoxicated with this country especially a brittish man use a black tuxedo with a white umbrella on his hand, okay I must be melting thousand time see that beautiful scene hahaha

• Sixth, Dancing

I’m doing jaipong dance since I’m on junior high school until now.

Mudik (part.2)

Oke tulisan gue kali ini mungkin agak kontroversi atau setidaknya mengundang banyak komentar orang yang ga setuju. but, it’s just my opinion, ok. Pertama yang terlintas dipikiran gue pas nonton berita mudik di Indonesia yang cukup banyak memakan korban jiwa which is naik sekitar 2% dari taun 2011 kemaren, yang meninggal jumlahnya ga bisa di anggap sebelah mata menurut gue tapi pas liat angka kecelakaannya pun cukup tinggi bikin gue mikir, apa yang salah dari semua ini? Kita semua tau kalo tradisi mudik mungkin cuma ada di Indonesia. Setelah gue pikir (beneran gue mikirin ini cukup serius hehe) sepertinya di Indonesia mulai terjadi tradisi mudik karna terjadinya urbanisasi. Yap. Which is Jakarta sebagai ibukota mengalami peningkatan kemajuan fasilitas, sarana, prasarana yang jauuuuuuuh lebih maju dibanding kota-kota lainnya. Nah faktor ini juga yg mungkin memicu para pendatang dari kota-kota lain bahkan, maaf, kampung-kampung kecil diluar sana yang jauh dari kata kemajuan baik dari segi pendidikan, ekonomi, sosial dan sebagainya. Mungkin itu sebabnya mereka2 ini yang bermodalkan nekat, ilmu yang mungkin ga seberapa juga modal yang ga begitu besar buat mencoba peruntungan di ibu kota Negara ini, Jakarta. Nah menurut pemikiran gue ga sedikit dari para pendatang ini yang sukses bertahan hidup dengan membuat kehidupan mereka dan keluarganya jauuuh lebih baik disbanding tempat asal mereka tapiiii, ga sedikit juga yg gagal yg akhirnya malah jadi pengangguran di Jakarta dengan tingkat ekonomi, pendidikan, sosial yang bisa dikatakan rendah, but I know, they love Jakarta. Suka atau engga banyak hal yg bikin mereka ga bisa balik lagi ke kota asal mereka, bisa jadi ga punya modal, terlanjur betah, dan banyak lagi alesan lain. Nah ketika mereka jauh dari keluarga mereka disana, ya orangtua, adik, kakak juga sanak keluarga yang lain, mungkin mereka ini kangen lah pastinya or maybe they feel guilty karena ninggalin orang tua yang beneran ‘tua’ disana. Nah ketika momen lebaran tentu dong kita semua pengen ketemu atau tinggal deket orangtua kita dan itu yang mereka rasain. Faktornya, ketika mereka tinggal dijakarta ini berusaha fight dengan segala tetek bengek kota besar, ketika mereka mudik, mereka ngerasa ‘wow ini nyaman sekali’ ya gimana engga mungkin banyak diantara kita ataupun mereka ga bisa melakukakn ini, silaturahim sama orangtua pada hari2 biasa. Nah ketika mereka merasa nyaman they do it again and again in the next year atau pas lebaran sehingga terjadilah tradisi mudik di Indonesia. Pertanyaanya adalah apa emang menemui orang tua dan keluarga disana hanya bisa dilakukan pada saat hari besar lebaran ini aja? Sesulit itukah meluangkan waktu silaturahim sebelum bulan suci ramadhan? Toh mungkin kita punya sedikit waktu luang buat menjaga silaturahim yg mungkin menurut gue bisa sedikit ngobatin rasa kangen tanpa harus nunggu momen lebaran? Apa yang salah? Apa mungkin kualitas silaturahim kita yang buruk? Sehingga kalo saat lebaran kita ga mudik itu bakal bikin perasaan ga nyaman lah ngerasa bersalah sama keluarga dll. Ckck it’s complicated ffiuh. Sebenernya mudik aman pun bisa dilakukakn, tapiii tentu butuh kerjasama dari berbagai pihak, pemerintah dan masyarakat juga.